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April 11, 2008

Crucification is complete

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"Hey its time for lunch";I was knocked off my thought.Its time to have those three stale chapathis and so called gravy.I was counting down my days at jail.But it was not that bad too.I had got a friend here who much ,similar to me ,has been trapped.It was his cousin who cheated him which finally brought him here after bankruptcy.He always reminds me"Only your parents tend to be true to you,others are just cheats ,they use you for their needs and then throw you off".I was slowly but steadily starting to digest his theory of life,May be my life was proving it.There are sleepless nights when the moments with my best friend haunts me,I couldnt still understand why did he do it.But many questions in life are never answered and this just adds up the list.

Finally the day has come.My case would be heard today.I hope it would not be postponed for another day.My bail plea would be re-considered today.Now that the piece of evidences have been forwarded for technical analysis,I was much more hopeful that my innocence would be proved,but nothing was predictable.One again I stepped into the court corridors,the usual verbal exercises from both counsel were in full swing.But I found my friend was missing among the people seated there.My mom and dad were in front row hoping for a better result.Finally I was granted bail as the judge noted that the prosecution had failed to make any progress in the case.Also the police were yet not able to prove that I had any hand in the murder.It was a happy moment.I was happy that I got back to my parents.I reached home and mom did make a lot of dishes for me.But one thing I was really disappointed was that I had missed many classes,many exams,but I was optimistic that once I get out of this hell issue,I would have a better tommorrow.I felt my love for my parents had increased a lot now.I thought only they were sincere to me where as my friend whom I had trusted had cheated me ruthlessly.
I didnt want to,but still,out of curiosity,enquired about my friend to mom.She said,"Hmm he had come here to enquire about you after we had visited you.We were very rude to him.But we had misunderstood him.He was forced to lie coz of threats from those gangsters.He never wanted to,but he had no other choice.I think we hurt him a lot that day.Otherwise he wouldnt have done this",her words were getting softer and thinner.I knew something had gone wrong.She went back to kitchen.I was cursing myself for what I had thought about him.I felt I should meet him .So in the evening,I set out to his home.

I reached his home,the surroundings looked gloomy.His dad was seated in the corridor.When he saw me ,he came out "Oh so finally you are back,our prayers have been answered,my son had always wanted to meet you,but we didnt let him to".He started talking about his son a lot and the memories that we had shared. I couldnt really understand the context of his feelings,but soon his eyes were diluted ,he said,"get in ,your aunt is in the kitchen".It was my second home and I had a lot of freedom there.I went to kitchen,even I found her gloomy,but stil she managed to stick a smile on her face.My friend was still not seen around,so I enquired her where had he gone".She didnt say anything,her tears suggested that something seriouly went wrong somewhere.She went to his room,I followed her.She opened his drawer and took out a letter.She handed it over to me,"He always wanted to come over there and meet you,but we were worried.He wanted us to give you this,you were his best friend".She said and started to move back to the kitchen.First of all I was really taken aback by the cold reception I got,and now the suspense was just growing thicker.But I couldnt ask her anything.I looked at the letter.At the top he clearly mentioned that the letter was not to be read by anyone other than me.I opened it.

"Hii man,I know you are disgusted with me,I was helpless;I was forced to speak against you.I never wanted to.I now I have broken the trust you had on me.I feel guilty and I can no longer carry this.I couldnt convince you parents that I didnt cheat you,I couldnt convince myself.Now it has become too hard for me to carry on.I just wanted you to know that I never meant betraying you,we have been so close,but still our affinity has been tested and my integrity has failed to put it together.I dont know if what I am doing is wrong,but what I did to you was never right.I stii cherish those moments when we were together,I would surely miss you.Please
forgive me if you can,I am sorry .My dearest friend I am really sorry"

I couldnt take it anymore.I was getting eager to know wherehe was.I got out of his room and just then I saw his mom with the tea.I asked her,"where is he, i want to see him".
"I wish if you could, he could never go against you and when he did,he didnt even think about us,we lost our son ".I could stay there no more.She wanted me to have the tea,I couldnt even answer her.I ran out and moved off.I could see those frames of moments running through my heart when we were together.We stayed together in moments of happiness and pain until this moment when we were separated.He could do nothing else,but I failed to understand him,I mistrust his friendship.And now I am not given a chance to rectify.

His note would be strong enough to prove that I am innocent.May be it would lead the case in the right way.I would be freed from all the charges.But finally I am the loser.I lost my best friend,I lost a relationship that I treasured a lot.The voidity that I have never felt till now is starting to creep up.I start to understand the true meaning of tranquility and pain.The last nail on my heart has been hit in.My crucification is complete.

4 comments:

Aslam v 2.008 said...

mind blowing.......pls give me yo shoulders to sob sob cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..
good wrk..keep goin

shanthu said...

brilliant da...too gud...u shud take this writing really seriously man...that was full of emotions and i really felt my heart would burst wid pain...

suni said...

better this time....
nice ending...
keep it up.......

jaya said...

hi... varun
Its too good...
No words to explain...superb...
Very good style of writing...
can feel the emotions...

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