The best shock absorber

When I was in third standard,I used to hate my english teacher because she always used to scold me for my bad handwriting.Now after near about 14 years,when someone asks me if I still hate her, you would expect me to cherish those memories with smile and I do cherish them with a heartfull elation.I am not here to mention the my rivalry with the english ma'am,but the ability of time,infact of the human mind to forgive any wrongs done or heal the wounds with time passes on.Now hatred of 3rd standard boy is a mere silly thing for a 22 year old same guy.

I have had some of the very painful experiences and I do remember me having sobbed all the time over and hatred growing in my mind for the injustice done against me,but now when I think about those instances,I really feel surprised at the change of emotional fluctuations that I have had,I see a more stable self which no more thinks it with hatred or sadness.The time has infact helped me to absorb those shocks and now I just take those things as part of my life and not to forget the lessons that those things have taught me.Infact time is the best shock absorber,most of the people do get their pain and sadness healed as time passes on and this is something that I really feels as a bliss given to the man by god.As time goes on the maturity that our emotions attain to overcome shocks is beyond any logic or control.(If there is one it is only that irrespective of whatever happens,we are made to live further and we continue living)Well there is no pain that time cant heal,if there is any,well nothing else can heal it.

Minutes to Midnight

Another dusk has come,just minutes away from getting in to another day.A new dawn where your calenders change and more over a reason for an uprisal of new hopes.Its another year just minutes away and as always this time I feel a bit too much attached to the present year.This year has indeed been a mixed one for me,but infact a more positive one and many things to cheer to.Also I have had many important lessons from various incidents and experiences in life.I hope I will learn atleast this times.While having a introspection of the gone events,I really wonderhow I could overcome some instances that I never hoped to happen.Now I understand,there are things that run beyond our control,even our mind is desined to overcome the most horrible events that we would think we can never face.Life do flip phases in moments and at times you remain mere spectator and at times you prefe to remain so.Another year passing away,earth is getting one more year older,my seconds remaining in this earth being decremented,I am getting matured atleast in age and then again turning out into new world sooner from being in a college atmosphere to corporate culture.Time passes,days run off and still I feel there are things I missed out;but never mind another year in the making,new hopes mushrooming up and people talking about resolutions and again putting myself deep into this new year celebrations eventhough I stil feel so lonely and alone.Lets celebrate the final minutes to midnight of this year and welcome another year with hopes and aspirations.

My final interview

This is one of the interesting and most vibrant of the interview experiences that I have had.The test was on May 14th and since it was the first placement drive at our college,I had to take up the initiative for coordination work and had work till night at college,just the day before the drive.So I didnt even bother about touching the books.Next morning I had to go early and make the necessary arrangements.Now being a volunteer,one can imagine the need to make things in a proper manner.As expected,the test started around 10 am and to my surprise it was an easy paper.So I could do well and could get through the first round.The GD was at around 2pm and I got selected to the interviews.

There were two rounds of interviews,the first one was technical followed by HR.The technical interview started off with simple questions.I was asked my favourite subject and then questions were based on that,I could answer almost all questions and quite against what I expected from a techie interview,I was asked to tell about myself.I was embarrassed a bit,but still managed to answer the question.The interview was over and almost after 15 minutes the results came out.My friend and me were told to be disqualified.Even though initially it came as a shock to me (as I had done the interview well),since I was already placed,it didnt hurt me much.But my friend was extremely disappointed.Later the Caritor guys told that it was a mistake and both of us were selected for the next round.My friend was very jubilant and even was I.I was the final candidate for the interview and since I had an experience of 5 earlier interviews,I was calm and composed.


The interview started off well and I was asked a question if I am interested in higher studies,I said not at present and he asked me why.I answered for it and then I was asked a number of questions on this.He started to put on some other topics and when I answer for something,just started to fire a volley of questions,infact it seemed more like a torture.I was feeling a bit of depressed and all the time I had to say sorry for I couldnt argue with him.Finally after 20 minutes of torture he said "Ok I am done with you,you can leave".By then I was sure I would not be selected.I just cant explain the feeling that I was going through then.

Nearly after two hours,the results were published and I was more elated than anyone to hear my name announced.My interviewer was sitting in the dias and he just smiled at me.This was my first stress interview and I knew only then how stressful it can be.So my suggestion for you friends; Keep your cool and remain calm;you will feel tortured or harassed but remember the interviewer is just testing your temperament and ability to handle pressure.Just calm your nerves for possibly some minutes and then you are through. All the best.

Being in Bond

To be loved is a great virtue and even when someone is losing his/her life,the feeling that you are really loved and cared and is what you had really wanted in your life and that makes you smile even at the dying moments.Every time when I come up with such termed down philosophies,what I really feel happy is the experiences that I get in my life as time passes on which really tells me these philosophies are still worth a look.Recently I had to attend a funeral function of my relative who had demised after a long harassment by a fierce disease.Now the term demise is normally associated with a royal death,but I associate that word with this death not because the person belonged to a royal family,but she was rich by love and she had got the love and care from her family that anyone would love to have.

Its quite evident to all that god doesnt give everyone everything,but still those imperfections are the way that establishes human relations and bonds.But now the wide acceptance of belief that money can get you everything has created the misery of disregarding relationships and emotions.Being in bond is more a bondage now rather than being a bliss.I was talking about my relative who had died of a serious but curable disease.Her family belonged to middle class,infact lower middle class and so out of worry that her husband and family couldnt afford the cost of treatment,she didnt care the initial signs of the disease and finally when it was detected,it was a bit too late.Even after spending in a large sum of money ,her life couldnt be saved.Every penny spent for her treatment had a story of hard work and pain to say.But still she couldnt be saved.But what really fascinated me infact surprised me was the commitment that the whole family had shown to save her.It was the love and care that she was given and the prays that werent answered positively and finally some true cries and woes when she had passed away that would really wet any eyes even if you happened to be a stranger.

This is something I really hasnt found in the recent past in this society.Mostly people has a cancerous thought for making more and more money and relations and emotions are just not there.The "fellow feeling" that is the soul of a relationship is never there.Every relationship is made for money and profits and too much professionalism has creeped into our personal lives that we never bother about our relations.I dont say you have to be too passionate but atleast have a heart for people around you because you are not born to make dollars,but to make yourself and others happier with your existence.As an ad goes "There are somethings that money cant buy,for everything else there is ....";the problem is now we have too many things money can buy and for other things,well who wants those.People measure others with the width of their pockets.You are thrown off if you dont have money or power.If you are a child,well none cares,if you are a teenager you wont have any girl friends(you can manage without any),if you are middle aged,you struggle the whole day for a living and if you are old ,you are thrown in to the streets,these is the normal protocol associated with being poor.

But there are moments where money fails,there are moments where your swiping credit cards cannot wipe it off.You can buy lust,but not love and care.You can have diplomatic relationships,but never true at heart.There will many around who says 'I will be there with you always in all troubles and problems' and when you are really in one,mind you those who told you that would never be there for you.Be with the successful and wealthiest and stamp off the downtrodden,this happens to be a formula the whole world follows now,.I am almost completely sure that many of you might not have reached even at this point reading the post,probably after two or three lines ,you would close this off and say crap.Yes this is a crap when you live your life as a king,when you have people around you and when you have everything you want.But in everyone's life however rich you are,life puts you in an introspection period where you think (you are made to) about what you have achieved in your life other than money.If you end up with Nil well then this whole idea no longer remains crap and that very moment,you sob for what you have done and life makes you pay for it.But the problem is it will be too late to rectify and you end up sobbing.So better start having a bit of feeling for your mate,let him/her be your friend rather than your mate.Love those who care for you and care those who needs it from you.This is not something that I am preaching you but this is something that life is teaching me every moment and I feel is worth sharing.Atlast let me rephrase that ad,"There are somethings that money can buy,for everything else you need love and passion".

Another upcoming year termed "new"

Last days of December,just hours to the holy Christmas and its party time for all.Just when the christmas gets over,the whole world gets into the new year fever which is ignited once the December begins.Awaiting new year has become more like a festival rather than an inevitable and unstoppable passage of time which we admire a lot.I feel this is the only time where we waits for time and other times,every one just doesnt have time for anything.For me this just turns out to be another day,the only difference being you get some new movies in the tv channels.Its the same old wine in a new bottle or may be same bottle with changing labels after every 365 days.Everyone talks about resolutions,aims,targets and things like that;but I always wonder,if one really needs a change why to wait till the January 1st and why not any other day.The only good thing I find is the jubiliation that people seem to be in on this particular occasion (Remember the majority would still be fighting to get their only meal of the day),atleast the hopes of the people for a better world is really encouraging.But the sad fact is that this hope is only for that and rest of the days,its the same disregard we show towards the society and world.

For me this is just another day,the difference being I have to look into a new calender and I really hate to term it new because I dont find any novelty in it,all same months with same number of days(exception:leap year).Is there anything new in what I do,Does my outlook change,Am I going to do anything new thats going to be positive for people around me;I admit with shame NOOO.I really wonder how many of those who read this post is going to bring a change atleast a gradual one on the eve of this "new" year.Before you term Me pessimistic and hopEless,let me tell you hopes alone never do a thing even though its a must.

Again other than some inevitable happenings reserved for this year,I find nothing new.I am gonna follow same dress code,eat same food and my thoughts,I dont think thats gonna change in much a bigger way.So this so called new year is going to start with another usual day for me and I hate to give it any other importance other than a bit of hope that I would improve from this day on(I do that everyday but as always..).I am against these all kind of pomp and show,and night out parties on new year days.Its just nothing other than a showoff,infact another excuse the wealthy heads find to burn out their money.Not even a poor man celebrates a new year,as always he hopes for his daily bread thats more to him and I have to say I proudly stand with them,with the class of people who are still away from status games and hypocrytic show offs.I agree I have not done anything for them,but atleast I dont want ANOTHER UPCOMING YEAR TERMED "NEW" to be celebrated with pomp and show and parties.

But again since I being a part of the vicious circle of social fabric,wish you all a happy new year and please take resolutions only if you can do,atleast if you feel you will try.I hope ATLEASTTTTTTTTTTT 2008 will make a difference for whom it will really be a DIFFERENCE and who needs it.

The Final December

You would again sense a feeling of too much intimacy or a kind of inhibition to be away from the present atmosphere,from this post that I exhibit in my writings.Being an extremely emotional and sensitive person,there are feelings that I hate to curb and my nostalgic thoughts happen to be one among them.As I am one of the guys who live in the past,this december has got some specialty in my life,probably because this happens to be the final decemeber of my life in campus;infact I have had the final day of this year at my campus today.You would ask what is so particular about this month or this day as this is a part of life and should be taken as a normal course of the time.But as most of the nostalgic maniacs(I think this is the apt word) would do(Atleast you expect them too),I too take the pain to find a reason why this is such a special time for me.

Being the final month of an eventful year,it does has its significance for me and as all would,I too wanted to have a happy note ending for the final day of this year at my campus.As if it would be worth mentioning,the climate too was completely different otherwise none would have expected rain at this point of time.It was just another gloomy day to start with.It was just gloomy environment too at the campus with not more than two or three students there and here.I almost felt like watching a malayalam movie of 80s where the hero walks through the corridors of an empty campus.("Sarvakalashala" if I am right)As usual I had class with not more than 6 or 7 students(I dont hope to see all my classmates together in these final left out 100 days in the college)And for class being taken,we didnt have any (and we never wanted to have any).As the last few of my days were in the campus,this day too was fast finishing off eventless.I was howling around and irritating my friends(as I always do),but was gloomy within because ,even though I dont want to ,I had started to countdown the final days in my campus.Finally,at the end when I was to leave the college,I just looked back,had a whole look on the college(I dont think I ever did it in the past)and even when I was moving on my friend's bike,the very first day of my college life bangs back to my mind.Memories were pelted on my heart stronger and deeper than the raindrops that were pouring during the journey back to home.But again time never waited for me and I never wanted to go with time and I still live in the past,in the second bench of first year class with four years of dreams and aspirations."ROLL NO 33 . . . . Present ma'am".....................

Happy Days

I am at the twilight of my campus life and in such a case ,watching a movie which portraits the four years of college life would be really something touchy;this is the feel that I experience after having watched the telugu movie "Happy days".The story line is not as good as Classmates and the movie has some scenes thats really miles away from logic,but still there is something very touchy about the movie that makes me write this post.Its the sincerety with which the concept has been protrayed that really is the core of the movie.Its covered almost all aspects of college life and I dont think it has missed even a single instance of college life (there are scenes with students preparing for exams and 2-3 class room clips which you rarely see in most of the campus movies).The movie is entertaining from beginning to the end and would you believe,the theatre was packed with people (such an audience rarely turns on for a malayalam movie now a days).All those friendship fights and relationships,ragging and not so friendly attitude to seniors and finally all of them coming together really brings on a feeling of elation and infact warm memories of past three years of my college life.Being in the final year ,I really start to feel a bit emotional about my college.The count down has already begun and with less than 50 working days left,I feel so much intimacy towards each element of my college;that rusty canteen is no longer rusty;even that dry hot rocks has got a charm (or I feel it has some).Its been an eventful 3 and half long years for me in almost all aspects of life,but the intensity of dreams and aspirations that I had when I joined is almost the same even when I am at the verge of leaving my campus.Looking back at what I have gained in all these three years ,I really feel nice that I have got a bunch of friends,a bit of wisdom(I hope so) and a bit of academic knowledge.As everyone would feel,it really hurts when I have to confront the fact that my college days ,where one tends to be careless about life,no serious thoughts,where everything is fun and friendship matters the most and probably the final time when you actually behave as what you are, is going to end soon.Its been full of moments that I would cherish till my end and will miss it badly.Guys how ever worse your college is ,the whole environment may seem to be dead and damp,but enjoy every moment to the fullest because this is the only time when you can have a real blast and have wondeful memories.Dont give yourself a chance to sob later because one you miss it,its gone for ever,unfortunately life doesnt have replays.

Google Analytics

Every time google comes with new things ,nobody is left without being fascinated by it.This time they have come with something thats already there,but still it has hit the market with a bang.I am talking about Google analytics that has become a webmaster's dream.Its as simple as all other Google services are.Just sign up for free,if you have a gmail account ,then its all available at one click.You can register your site there and the traffic to your site is monitored by them and you are issued reports.The most important thing is it covers almost all aspects of the traffic to your site.If you are a webmaster who is looking for a healthy page rank,then you must be a part of google analytics.Also bloggers who wants their blog to be more public and atleast a bit commercialised,I recommend you to be a part of it.I have been a member of almost a month now and its really nice that you can track each and every bit happenings of traffic to your site.Its the first step to increase traffic to your site.This service also provides you with an opportunity to correct the errors thatis present in your sites and these might be the prime reason for your site being not displayed in the search results.To know more about it go to this link http://www.google.com/analytics/

Love,Lust and Life

The name sounds similar to a daily soap that had been a sensation for years in a television channel.I am speaking about what I have seen happening around me in my campus(Not confined to my campus).Falling in love is nothing so novel,but the frequency with which people fall in love really asks for redefiniton of love,I think its infactuation and not love.When one enters into the college,there are a lot of expectations that you expect apart from your academics,friendship is a sure part of that,but many,infact almost all expects to fall in relationships thats hard to be named(infact people still finds name).This is the age where you expect, to crop up between you and someone, a relationship ,almost unknowingly for the first time,from the second time it happens to be something "intentionally unknown",infact I have seen guys who take it as a challenge.When I say from second time,you wonder is it something of a customary to get involved in relationships one after the other.But a feeling of forgetfullness and professionalism has risen up in this "field" that you see new relationships mushrooming up more than there are break-ups,thanks to the urban culture,emotions are nothing more than show offs and as far as love infact true love is concerned,that has flown out of the windows a long time back.I still wonder why someone need a word "true love".I really would love to know what is 'LOVE' and 'TRUE LOVE'.I think its better to be defined as 'being in love' and 'not in love'.Todays friends are tomorrows lovers and vice-versa and the flexibility in such relationships to shape roles in both relationships has grown many folds.Again I have misused the word love for infactuation,infact its something below even that level.I would never say all love affairs that fill the air are crap,but most of them,I emphasise MOST OF THEM are for reasons that even they find it hard to find.Infact those are all excuses that is cooked up to cover up an idle (most of the time ,inertia to invlove in something worth doing) mind's creation that can never be termed wrong,but can it ever be morally true.Now morality is nothing more than mockery now a days,you dont even find that word in textbooks now a days.So this so called fun filled adventures spice up the years of college life(too much spicy is never good).Once you are out of the college gates to a world where you mean nothing and you are viewed only as a source of benefit for whom you are involved with(In professional and personal life,most of the times profit remains the lone purpose of relationship);Thats the time when you think about your 'adventures' in the college and term it just as a funny game.But again there are times when you try to find the purpose of having had such relationships and end up with not mere than anything other than excuses that you would find not so comfortable to satisfy your inner sense(even thats not much seen with people now a days)But then again you say whats life without having someone to hangout with it even if you dont have any feeling for him/her,you want to powder your character with lust so as to attract some 'special' people and moreover all junks of thoughts to carry with.Time and again ,many vommit off these thoughts and philosophies,still you see in the empty classrooms,at the corners of ice cream parlours,on the back seat of theatres ,people involved in the greatly proclaimed "love" and you(even at times,I am not an exception)sigh silently"mera number kab aayega".(comments are welcome with no personal attacks on anyone.).

Do's and Dont's in an interview-Strength and Weakness

Hi guys back again with another stuff that I feel is worth mentioning.In almost 90% of the interviews,you get the question "Mr X ,what do you feel are your strengths and weakness"( Out of the 6 interviews attended by me,I got this question four times).Usually you can see many cooked up diplomatic answers that most of the people follow and you can find it in most of the sites.When asked about strengths,the usual reply goes on as"I am very positive,hard working ,optimistic ,sincere to work bla bla bla".I can state this only as the ingredients that formulate your strength rather than them being strength.These are more like the vitamins and minerals that combine to form your nutrition.So when you reply ofcourse,state these points (its a must),but also add like "I am hardworking etc, because of this I have been able to complete my project before time"(citing example is a very good way of doing it.).Now coming to weakness,its the usual statement that they expect from you like"I am always busy with my work ,am more professional rather than emotional ;place my work above my personal things."All spoken out damp boring words,but I think that would be enough to get through(I f anything more please put it as a comment.).But Never say you are lazy (even if you are) or I am pessimistic or something.The most important thing never say that you dont have any weakness ,if you are so particular,you can say"I havent yet come across my weakness"(but preferrably avoid it,that can be a negative point also.Say it at your own risk).
Above all these ,the interviewer expects you to reply with utmost perfection the most important question "what are your achievements?".The reply would be "I got 99% in 10th; I qualified for national football team;I have been .....".Ofcourse these are achievements and you dont expect every person to achieve it,the problem I find is it lacks the punch that need to be there in your reply to make the interviewer satisfied,infact very happy.You get 100% for board exams ;you are happy and if your achievement ends there,then you happen to be a bit more selfish.Your achievement must be something that inspires or makes atleast a single person happy other than you.You can say "I got 100 % for the boards exam.My parents were proud of me .My friends were proud of me and infact I could see some inspired faces amongst my juniors.THIS IS MY ACHIEVEMENT".If this cant make an impression,then I dont feel much else can.So guys take my word ,your achievement must be a broader one rather than a self centered one.Remember guys, the company is looking for a TEAM PLAYER ,an inspiring guy,rather than a ONE MAN SHOW.